Not been havin proper meal f0r 3 days actually. Prolly I' m goin on a hunger strike. For the past few days, not in talkin terms wif mom. Haiz..w0n't even talk to her if she's not talkin or askin me abt somethin.

I know dat I made her angry but th0se words dat she used on me, till now keep playin in my mind. So I barely touch her food in her house. 0k let me re-phrase dat. Some 0f her food. I dun hate my mom but I hate myself.

And now, them not talkin to me or are they waitin for me say hi first.. 0r prolly I'm jus the sensitive paranoid freak here..

I've lost a fren and it's great dat he's happy wif a gf now. He's not sincere towards me? Most evidently. Perhaps.. Whats more, I dun wanna l0se my besties jus bc0s of wat happened. Arrgh..see? I'm gettin all em0tions again.

The best thin is, he not here when I need him. The line kena cut 0ff. 0k fine.. So maybe, finally dis is the time dat I shd learn to make more frequent calls t0 him in the future. Rather than jus wait for his call all d time.

Been tryin to shut off dis th0ts from me these days but it jus keep hauntin me. It's like there's dis inner instinct tellin me dat he won't be here for long. Urrgh..Maybe wat I need n0w is attenti0n.